Wrestling

I love that I am able to tell my Father anything and he turns his ear to me. I was in Grimerud for a workers gathering all of YWAM Norway was gathered for this. And God really was speaking to me about so much that he wants me to be apart of, teams and what not and also things going on now. And I became so overwhelmed and said "What God, you want me to do this?" and that night I went outside to alone to go confront God about all this and tell him what was on my mind,  I started shouting at him in frustration and confusion saying "God me I am only one man, and I cannot do this I am not ready, is this even you? is it?"and I kept going and going and then God said

"SHH" I was quiet so he could speak... after a couple minutes I heard nothing so i began to speak

" Go..."

"SHHH... Just listen" I sat there and as I looked up I saw God's angels standing off, linked together in a line. And i fell to my knees and began to cry. And he just reminded me "yes, you are just one man but I have sent angels to be with you and protect, the holy spirit lives inside of you, and you have me, these things are from me but always remember I will always be there with you." It was so humbling and I got up and all I wanted to do was worship him, and give him praise.

The next day I started realizing I've been hiding because I am scared to rise up and take the authority i have been given, and the call to leadership he is calling me to I'm scared people will look down on me and I won't be a good leader, to put it better words I was scared of what God was calling me to. And then someone cameup to me a couple hours later and prophesied to me to rise up and take the authority God ha given me, and people will not look down on to me. And i was thinking that is so accurate from what God has been telling me! it was so cool God is so cool. and loves to talk, talk, talk , and talk.

1 Peter 5:7

   "Cast out all your anxiety on to him because he cares for you."

1 Peter 4:10

   "Each one should use whatever gifts he has received to serve others faithfully administering God's grace in it's various forms."

Lastly I leave to Estonia in approximately 10 hours now with my team and I am so excited to be going there. I have been asking for God's heart for this nation, and i believe he has given me some of it. and I cannot wait to be there. The first week we will be in Tallinn doing prayer walks and evangelism and the 2nd week we are going South to Valga, and we will be working with a Church with the youth ministry and children and such things

So just keep us in your prayers

Ruben

Jaanika

Annelisa

Tina

Barbro

Tyler

You guys are so amazing.